Chapter 1: Understanding My Identity

In my journey, I've often pondered the question: Can a male tomboy truly exist? While I'm not interested in attracting men, I find solace in presenting myself as a masculine woman.

Fashion can be quite amusing, but grappling with gender dysphoria is no laughing matter. I enjoy experimenting with different styles and clothing. If societal pressures didn't exist, I would happily don summer dresses and similar attire. However, such freedom feels out of reach for now. Perhaps my future will lead me towards a more traditionally feminine expression, but for the moment, I must navigate the constraints of my current reality.

My wife and I are considering relocating within the U.S. Recently, someone suggested a quaint border town in Texas where we could acquire land and a tiny house at an affordable price. At this juncture, I'm open to any possibility. Yet, I can't help but feel a twinge of concern about being a man who wears women's clothing and possesses a soft, smooth appearance.

The allure of tiny home living captivates me. I've always found it appealing. As a minimalist, I’ve managed to condense my belongings into two suitcases, a backpack, a duffle bag, and three guitars. My wife has a similar amount of possessions, minus the guitars. When combined with our kitchen items and other essentials, we don't occupy more than a single suitcase's worth of miscellaneous stuff.

Reflecting on my upbringing, I recall living in a 1,600 square foot home, then moving to a shared 1,100 square foot residence with my wife, and now residing in a 750 square foot apartment in Mexico. Despite this downsizing, we still feel the urge to simplify further. Ideally, we could find a place with one bedroom and one bathroom, shrinking our space to around 600 square feet. I even think we could manage with 500 square feet, but time will tell.

We’re exploring options for tiny home communities or locations that permit the construction of small one-bedroom, one-bathroom homes. Initially, we’ll likely rent a modest apartment to gauge our feelings about a new town before making any long-term commitments.

I hope that any tiny home community we join will include open-minded individuals. Given that many still subscribe to the notion that bigger is always better, I imagine we might find ourselves among a group of free spirits. This aligns well with my artsy personality. It would be wonderful to discover a place that welcomes the LGBTQ community.

Recently, I've taken to wearing a ring adorned with the colors of the transgender flag. This simple accessory has shifted my perspective when surrounded by crowds. While older generations may not recognize the colors' significance, I believe younger people are more aware. It’s fascinating how something as small as a ring can evoke such profound feelings. As I've mentioned before, even minor steps towards embracing one’s true self can lead to significant transformations.

As I wrap up this Friday’s entry, I plan to finish my online work and dive into some new music projects. It’s been a while since I last updated my Anna B YouTube channel. Though I’ve been busy collaborating on music for other channels, I’m eager to create something for my own.

I might channel my optimism about finding a nice, affordable tiny home within a welcoming community into a song. It would need to capture those hippie, artsy vibes—perhaps reminiscent of Blind Faith's “Can't Find My Way Home.”

The video titled "Becoming a TRANS MOM (my story)" delves into personal experiences and reflections on identity, offering insights that resonate with many in the LGBTQ community.